What? Why?

Sometimes I worry about what goes on in the minds of other people. It's such a mystery what goes on in our own heads  that it's almost unfathomable to think or understand what is going on in someone else's.  This entry has more to do with my friend than with me this time. A lot of this is similar to what I went through, but it has now hit her. Her boyfriend just broke up with her, but he says he still loves her and cares for her. I'm sorry, but that doesn't really make sense.

People say one thing, but often do another. It would be nice if the human race came with a manual that told us what this action meant or told us how to deduce diction. We can always make inferences on why someone did what they did, but we are not always correct. I worry that we give up things that we don't realize we're giving up at the time. But maybe once you realize, it could be lost forever. That is our problem. We, more often times than not, don't know what we want, or possibly it is that we always want more and never settle with what makes us happy. Settling as in not always searching for more when you have what makes you happy now. Not settling as in giving up on finding what you want. If you're happy with someone or love them, why give it up?

It is difficult to read other people. We may think we know them, but they could be acting way out of character, so it makes you reevaluate everything that the person was before.

And why do we fight ourselves so much? I feel that sometimes we fight against ourselves from being happy because that is when we have something to lose. You can't get hurt as easily when you're not passionate about something or happy. It's too easy to forget that bad things can happen when you're truly happy. Your outlook on life is that everything is good, and all of a sudden it'll disappear when a rain cloud starts to downpour on you, and only you. So which way is better? Staying away from happiness so that you don't get hurt, or give in to what we want and risk getting hurt? People go both ways. I don't know which way is actually the right way to go because I can argue both sides. Sometimes the hurt is just too deep that you never want to experience anything like it again so you only let yourself reach a certain kind of happiness that can't be taken away.

Who knows how to combat these problems.. we just have to make a decision and try it out. That's what sucks about life, you never quite know what to do or how it's going to turn out, but you have to pick a way and live it to find out. Yay for uncertainty!

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I'm just sitting out here watching airplanes take off and fly. Trying to figure out which one you might be on and why you don't love me anymore.